If a man were to know the end of this day’s

“If a man were to know the end of this day’s business ‘ere it come. But it suffices that the day will end and then the end be known. And if we meet again, well then we’ll smile. And if not, then this parting was well made.” Uncommon Valor – Col. Cal Rhodes

We all have done it, we miss something. . . We cant get it back. . . 2 hugs later does not make up for the hug missed in the morning..  a kiss and I’m sorry does not make up for a missed “good morning”.  If you miss your date you cant make it up to the person you stood up. .  IM the KING of next time I will make it up.  I cant and as the past 29 days have showed me that.  When the Quote from the top comes to pass on August 29th I will have missed 10,000 chances to do it right when the time was there.  I have rediscovered the best friend I had forgotten.  We drifted and no one noticed the other one when they where sending up flairs and S.O.S.  I will miss the morning hugs I cant say the Morning kisses because well I did not kiss her good morning in 2 years.  I’m a heel, a rogue, a cad, no  I’m Dragon and I forgot that the most prized treasure needs to be admired and polished and show to the world. My hoard is lessened and made my shelf empty so when the world comes to the cave there is a empty spot where My treasure once was. Its life and no one gets out a live, When I go home I will see her face as I open my Eyes the sad part is on August 30th I will not.

Be careful what you wish for

“Be careful what you wish for you just may get it” -(unknown) We have all heard this before but we never head it.  The grass is greener…  sayings that give warning but never heeded.  When its over you wish for something that may or may not be good for you because your hurting.  Some times what you need you HAD and my never have again.. Moving forward does not mean you forget the past you need to learn from it

Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.  George Santayana
We all have some of us more than others ( raises hand ) guilty as charged  I have used my past against 2 very dear friends and they weathered the storm for this I’m thank full.   On a personal side I was an ass for not learning from my past that’s on me.  I know I’m partly to blame for where I am and that life happens so there is enough for every one to have a slice of why. but at the end of the day I get the biggest slice why because I did not learn and I repeated my actions yes others did also BUT that does not mean I have to. . .  When something breaks you can in most cases repair it the issues come when you do it again.  After a wile there is nothing but scare tissue and glue/weld left.  I’m sorry for all the scares.  So yes
Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.  George Santayana
learn from my mistakes its easier on your life and save room in your life to add more understanding and can removes some of the hurt….

life is not convenient

THIS JUST IN: life is not convenient. It wont happen when it works for you, its a mean bitch and will beat you to your knees. When you’re on your knees life puts more weight on your shoulders. The out look of “gods will” “fate” ” murphy’s law” “shit happens”  how ever you look at it.

Every one lies, and all truth is relative find one that works… here are some lies and truths pick one that fits.When you say in a min, after a wile, that min has come and gone. After a wile  is code for “I’m not doing it”. Maybe or we will see becomes…. No. . .  don’t lie to the other person say no say I really don’t want to.
Life is a mean ruthless bitch that is not for the weak and wont let you go alive.  The test is to get up and keep moving forward. .  with your life, friendship, work, insert ( _____).
The lover relation ship is over, But the friend ship should still be there. it may not be convenient, easy or joyful. It is how ever a needed to be able get up and move forward.  You can look to some unseen power for strength but at the end of the day its you. . .
” Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? ” (Marianne Williamson)

The Man who says he can

“The Man who says he can, and the man who says he can not.. Are both correct”    ― Confucius .  People offer to help, let them but remember its help they cant make you do any thing. A partner can not make the other partner happy they can assist or help but its the parties of the First parts that needs to want to be happy. . . if you say you cant lose weight You right stay on the couch. . . I can walk 2 miles! where are your shoes? You have some distance to cover.  When you and some one break up there are good feelings and bad feelings, there are happy memories  and the WTF memories. We all have it in us to make changes.  They don’t have to be great changes but they do have to be changes.  A water to a homeless person will make there day 50 cents to a school donation bucket may help the child that cant go because his family would have to chose between Food and the child’s trip.  If you say you cant with out trying you cant. NO you cant lift 1 ton all at once, but 50 lbs 44 times ( 4 sets off 11) guess what you moved a ton.

I have friends that can become over whelmed with life and I tell them take small bites of life, you don’t eat a turkey in one bite don’t tackle the job all at once know the lay of the land. Attack it the best way FOR YOU.  You can lose weight with small changes 2 cokes not 4 a day less sugar more veggies.  I have lost 57 lbs and all I really did was cut out sugar and logged my food and saw I ate enough for 2 people and low and behold I WAS THE SIZE of 2 people.
I have a friend that I had not seen in years we meet up one day and he looked at me and said ” you need a life style change…” in my mind I said ya  but how I cant . . . . when you think your having a stroke and all it is was dehydration you find a way to make a change.  “The Man who says he can, and the man who says he can not.. Are both correct”
Confucius  this is a statement that should be remembered not read and forgotten.

7 lbs and I cant breath

Let me start today that i never thought lifting 7 lbs would make me out of breath. . . Now your all saying WTF 7 pounds well  let me break it down. . . I lost 57 lbs  I had on my shoulders a 40 lbs  dog food and a 25 lbs of birds seed. . 40 + 25= 65 – 57= 7.  When your Fluffy, big boned large FAT what ever you want to call it you never see the Weight. .  when you are in a relation ship you get complacent and let your self go. .  STOP that your partner wants to show you off and when you weight 340 pound you look like CRAP.  They want sexy not FFS really the Pillsbury dough boy. . . this is not the normal post that will I hope inspire a talk between you and your wife husband girl/boy friend its a chat you need to have with your self as Christopher Titus said IF YOUR NOT WITH IN 10% of your starting dating weight YOUR the issue not them. . . . So here is a recap talk to partner, talk to your self about your actions and your life style. . . and always tell them there sexy and hug them. .

Forgiveness is a choice

what should have been

Model “Lady Atropin”  and  husband  “Langmann Ingoson” Photographer:  “Bully-Pictures”

“Forgiveness is a choice. Don’t wait for it to just wash over you all of a sudden. You have to choose it” – Dr.Phil

We hate our selves. .  Yes I just said what no one wants to admit.  Most people cant stand the face in the mirror, or they displace there feelings onto others to lighten there dislike for them selves.  To love ones self is not a crime, in many cases we don’t.  What we need to do is forgive ourselves for the sins of the past.  LET IT THE FUCK GO… Its not a coat to keep you warm, in fact it makes you colder. Its not armor to keep you safe, it makes you more vulnerable. It does not make you strong, it makes you weaker.  What it is, is a way for us to give pennants to our selves.  Its ok to love your self, to forgive your self.  What is not ok is to build a wall so high, so think you cant find even your self.  IF YOU WANT TO BE FREE…..forgive your self, there is no joy, no happy, no completion, if you cant forgive your self..  I know this first hand. . .  because I have never forgiven many of my friends and family for things… What I discovered is that I have become a lesser person for holding on to it. . .  I lost something very dear to me, because I could not forgive.  As I sat and talk to them, I found out that they can not forgive either.  How sad we both are for giving the power for happiness away.  I will try.    “No. Try not. Do… or do not. There is no try.” – Yoda   < for the geeks…….  IF I want to be happy and maybe once again travel with someone I truly love I must learn to forgive my self first then others because it does not work the other way around…….