Akiro: Why do you cry?


Akiro: Why do you cry?

       Subotai: He is Conan, Cimmerian. He will not cry, so I cry for him.

I for years could not cry.  I was a man, a former USMC, football player, and wrestler; you do not cry. You eat it you make it part of you it becomes part of your wall, your armor.  Many tried to bring down my wall.  Took me losing my mind for the wall to come down and in to this world came Raymond (from Rain Man). I have a friend she is wise and speaks little. when she does you need to listen for she seldom repeats her self.  I asked why do you put up with me she said “I don’t, I pick you up dust you off and make you breath. you do every thing else”.  My ex is strong beyond words.  She is in a world few would dare try to even attempt.  With the grace of a queen the power of a Valkyrie she stands with out waver.  She wades hip deep in to a cesspool of hate, loathing and anger.  Her armor shines brighter with every hit she takes from the poison this Dragon can spit at her.  But this time she also carries hope for a Dragon that refuses to do it for himself.  That’s a Queen; no that’s a woman’s love.   I’m Dragon, I fight for the those who cannot. My Ice Queen fights for a Dragon that have given up hope….


When the Last Hope Dies – repost

When the Last Hope Dies

You try to be strong
But the pain holds on
Deep within you know
You can’t resist it,the pain has to show
When the last hope dies
I’ll hold onto the memories
Through all the hardship and lies
Through trusted friends and enemies
Your destination unknown
Can’t help but walk the streets alone
Calamity strikes the inner soul
You’re trying to become one
But you were never a whole
If I had a wish
That can be granted tonight
Will be to end your cries
Before the last hope dies..

Lancelot: Why do you always talk to God and not to me?

The fight

 Lancelot: Why do you always talk to God and not to me? Pray to whomever you pray that we don’t cross the Saxons.
 Arthur: My faith is what protects me, Lancelot. Why do you challenge this?
 Lancelot: I don’t like anything that puts a man on his knees.
 Arthur: No man fears to kneel before the God he trusts. Without faith, without belief in something, what are we?
 King Arthur (2004)  

It took me a while to understand this, seems simple they’re talking about theological view points. Are they really we have all done it we talk to a friend and not our partner.  When one person breaks their word or lies you lose what…. Faith. . . When you have lost your faith or you have lost your partner you will be driven to your knees.  I know I’m there now and like Lancelot: “I don’t like anything that puts a man on his knees.” My ex and I have as I call it growing a heart.  You can’t love different people with the same heart because there not that other person.  Me and my ex powered the first heart we grew.  As we talk and understand we know what happened. When it happened and why it happened.  We are also rebuilding our faith in each other. Arthur: “………. Without faith, without belief in something, what are we? That is easy your jaded and life does not have the luster the thrill it once had.