Lets see if I remember how to do this. Its been a long time I see the dust on the keys. I see the new scares on people’s hearts and on mine that are left behind in the new world order. There are two main ideas to grief/loss a 7 step view and a 5 step view
Seven steps
Shock
Denial
Anger
Guilt
Bargaining
Depression / Loneliness
Acceptance / hope
The five step:
Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression / Loneliness
Acceptance / hope
Guilt and Shock are left out of the 5 steps. In truth there are many sub stages and you will regress. I’m still friends with the love of my life. ” In the land of the blind the one-eyed man is king” I need that one-eyed man. I look at pictures form when we first met and there is a sparkle, a joy. As time went on that sparkle faded: ” There will come a time when gold losses its luster and the gems cease to sparkle…” She is now in loves with some one else. I know she loved me no mater how many time my inner voice says differently. I see it in two pictures both on my birthday one from the beginning and one from the end. my last birthday she took a picture for me and for one fleeting moment the love was there one last time. like a May Fly that lives for only 24 hours the look was there and gone in the blink of an eye.
I hurt, My arms miss hugging her curves. My eyes miss the vision that was her. I use to wake to the color of her soul.
Now I wake up to an empty heart and the loneliness of another day with out her. We text and email but as they say no better way to miscommunicate than electronically. I love you my Queen. I will always long to be in your grace again. I have one wish before i die and go home. i want to see the sparkle and dance in her eye she once had for me. I want to kiss her and have her kiss me the way she use too.
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