The Little things…….

When you break up with someone most times its large events or the lost of intimacy,  Trust or even friend ship.  Most times what causes this is the little things the missed morning kisses hugs.  The not wanting to here about their day.  Not wanting to here about their past.  so what you lose is not just the past and the present.  the worst is when you lose all the future the wonder in their eyes when they see things they enjoy.  Like architecture and photography.  You miss the wonder in their eyes as they see things.  So when someone says don’t sweat the little things Fuck them Sweat the little things the holding of hands the morning Kisses hugs the moment on how was your day and every now and then look at them and their eyes and marvel at the dance they do the sparkle they have and always  Look for the joy in their eyes when they see you.  I forgot to do this I did every thing wrong on my side I did not listen help encourage give morning hugs or kisses.  I did not ask about their day.  Now I’m starting a carrier on playing cards and reading people I’m pretty good at it.  If I’m so fucking good at it how did I not read her.  because we all get complacent and for get the important things in our lives.  Its like when someone dies we all have regrets.  That regret is we never take time to show them we love them.  We enjoy them.  We like having them around in assents we love them.  I have made peace with what I have done that does not mean I have forgotten what I have done.  Again when someone says don’t sweat the small stuff . FUCK THEM sweat the small stuff don’t miss a morning hug or a Kiss.   Its really hard I write this because she reads this and may follow what I’m saying.  I wish her happiness even at the cost of mine…