My brother never changes. His form does, his job may, his looks and even some times his voice but he does not. He does not talk after a death he carries on. He will have a time to reflect and remember but he will move on quickly. After a War, death, long trip, its no questions its to bath and to sleep. To escape for a time form people and duties he has to perform. He in a senses is my Mycroft. The older Brother that has all the answers. The one that guides. I the Homes, a junkie that gets off figuring out the why. Why someone says hugs for the world to see, when they love someone else. A few times a year he leaves and I’m alone. It’s hard to start with but as each day happens to come and go I under stand me more. He is him, I am me. Him Superman for the world to see, Me batman the detective always trying to find the “why”.
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7 harsh truths that will make you a stronger person
A BRIGHT SIDE COPY/ FORWARD THEIR WORK I JUST AGREE
We often find it hard to admit our own weaknesses, and we constantly make excuses for ourselves and others. We spend the majority of our lives waiting: waiting for something to happen, waiting for something to end, waiting for something to begin. But that ‘something’ is most definitely life itself. So why are we waiting? It’s time to face the harsh truth of life and begin to work on ourselves right now without delay.
Today, we here at Bright Side share an article with you that will help you spread your wings and soar to heights you never thought possible.
1. Nobody is actually too busy to respond to you
That boy or girl isn’t too busy to text you back. And your potential employer isn’t too loaded with work to get in touch. Remember, people make time for who they want to make time for. We text, call, and reply to the people we want to talk to.
If you don’t get a response from someone it’s because they have deliberately chosen not to answer you. The sooner you stop making excuses for people who treat you badly, the sooner you can get closer to the people who respect you.
2. Everyone puts their own interests first
No matter how loving, kindhearted, and caring a person is, they will always put their own interests ahead of yours. Even the most attentive lover may not know which ’button’ to push, unless you give them a hint. Even the most honest employer may not be aware they’re driving you into the ground if you keep accepting more work.
Most people just take as much from you as they can get, no matter what. So try to establish your own limits, and don’t allow other people to stretch them. Strong people are not afraid to say ’no’ or speak up when necessary. They know that they have to stick up for themselves because no one else is going to.
3. It’s impossible to keep everyone happy
If you did everything that every single person in your life told you to do, you’d probably go mad or would end up a lifeless, shapeless, emotionless blob.
The truth is, you can never please everyone. You can try, of course, but you will never succeed. There will always be someone who will disapprove of your choices or your way of life. You will be criticized no matter what you do. So make the decision that is right for you, and have the courage to pursue what you feel is right. The only judge you have to please is yourself.
4. The world owes you absolutely nothing
You could be the coolest, the smartest, and the most interesting person in the world but if no one except you is aware of all these wonderful traits, you’ll get nothing out of them.
There are only two basic choices available: you can spend your entire life feeling sorry for yourself because you deserve more than you’re getting, or you can step into the world and take what you want. Guess which choice successful people make?
5. You make excuses for yourself
You can spend your entire life blaming the world or others that you don’t have enough time, money, energy, or resources to accomplish your goals. And while your words may make some sense, actually the harsh truth is that every single person in this world has at least one damn good excuse for not living the life they want.
The people who get the most out of life don’t make excuses. They find ways to overcome obstacles instead of being disrupted by them. This is why they always succeed.
6. Your actions define you, not your thoughts
You can sit indoors all day thinking of a better world for us, but until you get out and start doing something you’re not actually making a difference. The ability to make big plans is a good thing, but unless it is coupled with action towards your goals, then it is all in vain. Remember: we are judged by our actions, not our intentions.
7. Nobody will save you from your life
In life, we are always waiting for something. We are either waiting to meet the right person, waiting for a dream to come true, or waiting for that job callback. When we’re unhappy with our current situation, we irrationally hope for a miracle that will help us to cope with all our problems.
But the truth is that life doesn’t work that way. Problems cannot be solved with a magic wand. If you want to make a change in your life and be more than you’ve been, you have to be the one that takes the steps towards your goals.
The strongest people know this simple truth: when times get tough, you don’t need to wait for someone to help or do something for you — you should rely only on yourself.
GOOD DAY, BAD DAY, THEY ALL RUN TOGETHER…

A sad truth…
She use to get all the candy…
This is where I will lose readers. But this is for me not them so here goes. I’m in love with 2 woman. YES I see the numbers drop as I lead off with this. One woman is some one that I have not seen in more years that one can count out loud. She is pale tall dark hair and has a grace and power not often seen. Her touch is cold. Her gaze is hard and piercing. Her tongue is sharp but has a velvet touch. The kind of woman that can call you rude, fat, obnoxious and you would smile and nod. She can also convey her utter displeasure and you would apologies with no hard feelings.
The other woman. ( the one that use to get all the candy). Has a beauty she does not share easy. I depth she her self has never dared to delve in to its depth. She has a cold aloof demeanor. She weald power sometimes with the understanding of a queen and then that of a petulant 6 year old. Her eyes are haunted by the wrongs done unto her. Her speech is unfiltered 75% of the time. But if you can get past this. There is a love seldom seen. She has built wall around walls and there is a price of admission to get past each wall.
I love both women deeply.
One brings out the best in me and I have won battles that most have sought imposable.
The other brings out the Dark Dragon. I vial creature that does not care what it takes, but will leave scorched earth in its wake to protect her. The issue is that this beast will also turn on her and will return the hurt received 10 fold. Yes even to the woman he is protecting. He will be nasty and hurtful and uncaring. He will not care about her past. He wont let her reminisce of her past happiness.
This 2nd woman would get all the candy, for a time. Then the 2nd woman would mess up and the Dark Dragon would start to turn on her. It would be small slights at first. But over time they would get harsher and crueler. Then the time comes to protect the woman and the beast would be ready to level cities in her defense. The issues is now he is in a Dark blind rage. And would turn on the woman and destroy the love they shared. The 2nd woman’s only defense against this is to release the beast. Drive it off with any means she could. But secretly cry about it. She still loves the Dragon but the beast can no longer be with her. See he is dying, He cant fly the hate and hurt is killing it. So to save the Dragon she has to make it leave to heal.
The First woman has seen this from a distance for a long time and it pains her. Its a ying and yang ideal. Perspective in some cases. All truth is relative pick one that works. Is the underlining sentiment of all of my blogs. The truth is Both woman are part of the Dragon’s life. The love is deep and strong with both and no matter who or what tells the Dragon that the 2nd woman is not good for him. He knows the truth. They both bring out the best in him just one is the Dark best and the other is the Light best.
That is the true nature of a Dragon of Shadows he has no true nature. He is chaos, he is the light in the bitch black, Or the Dark spot in a bright day.
My best friend one of my brothers. Some people see him as in essence A blue Dragon. I call him Gray. For he is my moral compass. From where I stand he is neutral. A Gray Dragon on a gray Mountain over looking a gray sea with a gray sky reaching the sea below. Perspective. We all have it and that’s why mine is mine yours is yours.
I will return to the first Woman. If I was Sherlock Homes she would be The Woman. But the 2nd woman I will always love. Will always rescue if she needs it and will stay for a time, but will leave when things are calm. They both Bring out the best. But perspective says its the worst. History is written by the winners. In the end most of us are all Good and Bad at the same time. Example. You give a homeless man 10 bucks That’s good of you some will say. Some will say its bad you have just paid for his vice ( drug of choice ) Whos right. Both and neither.
My friends will read this and I hope get a better understanding OF ME the Dragon of Shadows.
I can be the nastiest creature on the face of the earth using any weapon at hand to win.
I can be the one making coffee, sneaking you wine after work on a bad day. The one giving treats to kids when they where told no candy.
- I was in the USMC and I remember what my Drill would pound into us. ” your first last and always job is to go home” and he meant alive.
This is everyone’s goal to make it home after work, a trip, going to the store. we all want to go home.
The two woman in my life both are needed for they both are my Light and Dark. My Valkyrie, and My Vampire. One I will always return home to and one I will visit when she need me.
NOT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON
This is a repost of information that should be read.
Fiction : What issues may come.
Chapter 3:What issues may come.
And from the Darkest places Kindness is found
“Who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men?
Opening to the Radio show “the shadow”
I hate people not a person but people. What is the different you ask. Well people are heard animals, reactionary, with a mob mentality, a group think if you will. A person has independent thought, Ideals, can feel and even has compassion. The pictures above are of two woman I know. there is one is of me. The women are all dark, gothic and breathtakingly beautiful. Each have shown me kindness one I will never meet in person ( well one says never say never) one I dated. They all have smiled at a stranger and lifted his hopes. One was gliding down an escalator at Macy’s when My heart stopped. As stated many time I’m a large ball of arrogant, harsh asshole, with a thin candy coating of charming. The last picture is of me from Sept. 1st 2014 till now Nov. 3rd 2015 I have lost 18 inches and 78 pounds. . I would grow it all back if I could go back in time for 24 hours and tell MYSELF what the future holds for him. That would be me being kind to my self. I still call my self a Fat man, I tell my self I’m stupid for what I have done. I’m a loser for losing Raina the best thing I ever had. Hell I could bring my self up on charges for slander. If I was Married to my self I could get a divorce for verbal abuse. The woman in the pictures have shown more kindness than I have shown my self. For full disclosure one will from time to time say ” that’s great But you still…. ” it’s a left-handed compliment that she is working on stopping. Kali Noir Diamond a gothic model that have every right to just say “thank you” and never give it a second thought. What she did, chatted, smiled and gave a kind word to a strange. The Beautiful woman at Macy’s did not have to have lunch with me but she did. She did not have to invite me to make a life with her but she did. All acts of kindness to a person that self-abuse.
“Who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men? The Dragon knows!”,
I’m trying hard to stop but I fail. . a lot . . I keep trying. . I have started telling friends to stop with the negative help also. . when I want to think about what if I had done this different….. LET ME for a min it lessens the pain.. Don’t keep hammering home will did you ever think your meant to be here now so you can grow. . Yes I think of that often. So from the Darkest places of the Goth world Three Gothic woman bent over to make an wounded Dragon smile and stand back up.
Will we be Ok….
In my head there is Dragon and Raymond. I guess it’s the ID and the EGO if you will. I went insane at some point in my life hard to say just when. Now before you call Bellview phyc word. Read the center picture
“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” – Albert Einstein
I started doing this at some point in my life and it works for a while but in the end it turns every thing in to a layer of dust, consisting of shattered dreams, futures never reached and promises never kept. I’m broken, hurting, a recovering fat man, a raging ass with a thin candy coating of charming. ( I’m very self-aware ) The ladies in the pictures book ending the words are people I know in my life. One is a former Girl Friend and one…
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In plain site for no one see’s the shadows
Dragon where have been all my life?
The Dragon’s reply…In plain site for no one see’s the shadows…..
A Dragon of the shadows sits on a wall staring at the full moon. Mumbles “I wonder if she sees the same moon as I do from her distant land???” He still mourns the death a tiny cry echo’s against the stone of the castle walls. A scream is heard from time to time. A petulant rant form a scared little boy. Raymond screams “The dreams scare me the ghost keep me awake.” Raymond’s rant is never-ending ” The Dragon GOD that thinks of no one but him self…”. The child’s words cut at him cut deeper than any sword ever could. The touch that would quell the child is no longer here. As the Dagon is lost with voices and echo’s he does not here the approach of second Dragon A indigo blue mountain dragon. The mountain Dragon Speaks ” So will this be a long painful morning, you could just kill your self or better yet you could take what you learned and Live. You need to make a choice because you can’t do all three” and silently wings away. The Shadow Dragon whispers ” I truly hate you”. The mountain Dragon circles and roars back ” I know’ that’s why we are always there for each other. The Shadow Dragon taps a Claw thinking. Looks at the moon again. A tear rolls down his cheek. And off in the distance is a dark light messages are dropped and sent back. maybe its time to see what’s out there. A Shade of beauty and change. They say they like the Dragon. Want to message the Dragon and maybe talk to the Dragon. . and the winters chill seems to break a little. A slight smile can be seen on the Dragon face. Till the screams and voices and echo’s return but they seem not as loud………………..